I’ve had quite the lovely weekend. My insomnia really came back with a vengeance and not a sleepy time tea, benadryl, or tylenol pm could ease it. Oh well. I guess I really do need to get my ambien scrip filled again. I just hate that I’m gonna have to pay a damn $30 co-pay to get a $10 refill. BUT, that is only a very teeny tiny annoyance as I’m beyond grateful for my health care benefits.
As is always the case with my insomnia, I am feeling extra happy and optimistic and connected and just wonderful. I feel like I can take on the world and do all the things I always say I’m gonna do and still have yet to do them. I always try and chase this insomnia high and act upon all the great ideas I think I’m having. But without fail my mood levels even out and I go back to plain ol’ me that isn’t so manic happy and optimistic. But we’ll see, maybe this time is the time. I’m gonna try to keep on the up and up and try to pin down the things that I want to accomplish that will make my journey to my ideal happy future a reality.
Does that last sentence even make any sense? It sort of makes sense in my head, but…I can’t really trust everything that I think is brilliant in my head.
What I mean to say is that I want to finally start doing all the things that will make my future more attainable. I want to take a screenwriting class, start writing down my ideas, start filming short movies with my sisters and friends in our very limited free time. I want to keep up a gym regimen to help with the happy brain endorphins that’ll make me not so depressed and pessimistic. I want to do all the things that I know will make my happy.
So, here we go! Lets do this thing. 🙂
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| The lovely Jamie drew this for me. And I fell even more in love with her. |
~HM~
Heather Maez 
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